This Is Why I Can't Sleep At Night!

Because I have stuff like this buzzing around in my head. I seriously was not trying to write another song for "New Moon". It just happened...in my sleep...literally. So, I got up, laid it down on my Korg and went back to bed. Over the next couple of days I played around with effects and sounds and tweaked it a bit. Finally, on the third day I saved it to disk and called Brian, my bass player, because he has a recording studio in his house and he's the only one who's recorded me so far.

So, I'm all excited to finally get this one down because the second I record it, I can actually relax again. It's weird, but it's like my music hounds at me until it's recorded and then I can move on with my life. I get down there to his studio, we get all set up, I go to load up my song, expecting to push play, let it record, then sing along to it, and be out of there within 30 minutes.

NOT SO! Because NOTHING is allowed to be easy in my life EVER! I go to load it up - no song. Disk has an error. NO STINKIN' SONG! I'm like, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!" I think I scared Brian. He was afraid of what I might do next like destroy all of the equipment of burn the studio down. Something drastic. I AM pregnant and emotional. I took a few deep breaths and said, "Okay, you know what? This is NOT going to stop me. I'm doing this anyway because I want to sleep again at night".

Thanks to Brian's enormous amount of patience, I was able to lay it down. Funny thing is - it sounded way better doing it track by track. I think this recording actually came out way better than what I had recorded, so we've decided this came about due to perhaps a little heavenly intervention.

ANYWAY, so I'm now also submitting this for consideration to Summit. Tomorrow I'm sending out not one, but three packages with letters, lyrics sheets and CDs.

This song is called "My Plea". It's Bella talking to Jacob - basically letting him know the fabulous news - "Even though I've totally clung to you for months on end and it seemed like you had a chance with me, you didn't. I still want Edward". It's all very depressing and in case you're wondering - no, I don't do happy songs. There are no happy songs in me. It's all depressing. Welcome to my world. I thrive on the dark side of things. My husband is one amazing man to be with me. I'm not an easy personality behind closed doors.